With 3 girlfriends & seeking another. I want all 3 happy, hope all 3 accept each other. I'm insane or heroic?

My previous 2 wives were perfect. I found myself with my 2nd wife and became a well conformed husband and father. Fate stopped my good life when my perfect second wife died. Now I'm looking for the perfect wife again. Is there hope in my aspiration(s). Or am I day-dreaming an inception of a nightmare?